“During the night Jacob got up and took his two wives, his two servant wives, and his eleven sons and crossed the Jabbok River with them. After taking them to the other side, he sent over all his possessions. This left Jacob all alone in the camp, and a man came and wrestled with him until the dawn began to break. When the man saw that he would not win the match, he touched Jacob’s hip and wrenched it out of its socket. Then the man said, “Let me go, for the dawn is breaking!” But Jacob said, “I will not let you go unless you bless me.” “What is your name?” the man asked. He replied, “Jacob.” “Your name will no longer be Jacob,” the man told him. “From now on you will be called Israel, because you have fought with God and with men and have won.” “Please tell me your name,” Jacob said. “Why do you want to know my name?” the man replied. Then he blessed Jacob there. Jacob named the place Peniel (which means “face of God”), for he said, “I have seen God face to face, yet my life has been spared.” The sun was rising as Jacob left Peniel, and he was limping because of the injury to his hip. (Even today the people of Israel don’t eat the tendon near the hip socket because of what happened that night when the man strained the tendon of Jacob’s hip.)”
Genesis 32:22-32 NLT
From the 30 day youth leaders devotional
The ultimate moment of Jacob’s relationship with God had come. Jacob was now truly alone. Yes, he was alone when he had the dream at Bethel but at that time, Jacob was still full of himself and his plans. Now, Jacob was truly alone. All that he possessed and longed for was separated from him. There was nothing that he had left, to hold on to. What was ahead was certain disaster and this was when, in his total emptiness & brokenness, Jacob chose to reconcile with God.
Many of us are still ‘running’ in life. We have not yet come to the time and place where we are willing to put down all our defences and preoccupation and say, “Yes, Lord. I’m here before you”
The all night wrestling match was Jacob’s encounter with God. Jacob had to find the solution to his life of ‘running’. Jacob was not willing to let God go. God touched him and Jacob the supplanter was transformed into Israel, a prince with God. This was the transformation of God and nothing about Jacob’s capability. The limp remained in order for Jacob to always remember that the transformation was from God and not from him.
From now on Jacob’s life belonged totally to God and for His purposes.
Have you come to this place in your life journey? Or, are you still running? Will you come to God right now, put down all you defences and preoccupations and say, “Lord I totally surrender my life to you”?
Lord, I come to you in total surrender. Take all of me for yourself